Goodbye LJ...
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windandwaterThis is just to make it official for those who don't know, but I'm leaving LJ completely. For the rest of this week at least. Tomorrow is the Bar Exam and it runs for three days, so don't expect to see me about at all until Thursday night. Or even until the weekend since I plan on spending Thursday after the Bar drunk and crying. No online time for me at all. *whines* It will be hard, but I know I can do it.
So, because I'm a total h0r like that, I am declaring this to be a spam post. Go ahead. Run wild! Give me fics, give me links, give me pics, just babble to your heart's content and rape my inbox so I have something to see when I finally DO come back to the wonderful world of LJ. I don't even care if you write me a drabble and post it one word at a time. XD;
Though, I've tried to make a spam post before and it failed a bit miserably, so I don't have very high expectations this time around. Feel free to prove me wrong though!
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So, because I'm a total h0r like that, I am declaring this to be a spam post. Go ahead. Run wild! Give me fics, give me links, give me pics, just babble to your heart's content and rape my inbox so I have something to see when I finally DO come back to the wonderful world of LJ. I don't even care if you write me a drabble and post it one word at a time. XD;
Though, I've tried to make a spam post before and it failed a bit miserably, so I don't have very high expectations this time around. Feel free to prove me wrong though!
♥
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Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 04:59 am (UTC)And that mess led to this one, for even after the broken bones had healed, he couldn't stand to have anything restraining his arms. He had hoped, in a desperate, self-deceiving kind of hope, that it wouldn't affect his mission capability -- but when the time had come for him to submit himself to restraints, he... couldn't. As soon as the metal touched his skin, he panicked and struck out, turning what had been a fairly peaceful arrest into a brawl, and then a firefight, and then a desperate, panicked scramble to retreat, with the mission completely ruined. All because of his stupid weakness, his inability to control his own phobia.
Heero stroked Duo's hair gently as he considered the failure of the mission, contemplated alternate means of completing the objective, and wondered what was going through Duo's head. A year ago, there was no way he could have taken a fiasco like this so calmly. He would have been furious at Duo for blowing their cover, and apoplectic at the total failure of a mission. He might have even decided that Duo was a liability that needed to be eliminated. But his relationship with Deathscythe's pilot, turning from partners to friends to... whatever it was they had now, had shown a strange effect on Heero. Strangely enough, it was the mercurial pilot from L2 who had taught him the patience to deal with failure, to live to fight another day, and to accept something less than perfection. It had also taught him to distinguish between the means of a mission and the end of it. This approach to the mission had failed, but the goal remained the same; he would just have to find another way to accomplish it.
But there was a more immediate need to be fulfilled. Heero hadn't known that Duo still had so much trouble from his capture two months ago, and hadn't realized the extent to which Duo had been damaged. At the moment, he was a useless resource until he learned to deal with his phobia. Heero sighed, and shifted Duo around so he was face to face with his partner. Duo's face was still full of misery and self-condemnation, as though he still expected Heero to yell at him.
"Duo..." Heero sighed. "Why didn't you tell me that you were having this problem?"
Duo wouldn't meet his eyes. "I was hoping I wasn't," he said wretchedly. "Today was the first time someone tried to... actually tried to cuff me again, and I didn't realize it would... it would bother me this much."
"Bother is not the word," Heero said severely. "But Duo, this can't happen
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 04:59 am (UTC)Duo shuddered, and closed his eyes. "I'll just have to find a way to avoid it," he said firmly. "I won't go on any more missions without Deathscythe -- I'll --"
"And what if they disable your Gundam?" Heero interrupted harshly. "They can cut open your suit like a tin can and drag you out."
"I won't let that happen," Duo said, shivering harder now. "I'll self-destruct before I let them capture me -- I --"
"Duo, no!" Heero's voice rose in frustration and fear, and he grabbed Duo's upper arms and shook him, forcing him to open his eyes. "Damn it, you wouldn't let that happen to *me* -- you made me promise that I would never self-destruct if there was a chance that I might survive. 'Don't leave me behind,' you said. How can you think about doing the same to me?"
Duo's shoulders slumped in defeat. "I guess not," he muttered. "But -- I just can't stand it, Heero! What am I gonna do?"
Heero fell silent for a moment, thinking the problem through logically. "We need to train the phobia out of you," he said at last.
"But how?" Duo said miserably. "Anything metal touches my skin, and I panic. I can't just reach inside my head and turn off my emotions."
Heero considered it seriously. "It's not the cuffs themselves that are the cause," he said. "Right now you associate restraint with pain and fear; anything like handcuffs or chains triggers the flashbacks. You need to desensitize your body to restraint, in order to unlearn that trigger."
Duo stiffened, and when Heero looked at him was regarding him warily. "What are you saying, Heero?" he said nervously.
Heero frowned at him; he knew Duo wasn't that dense. "I am saying that before we can continue the mission, you need to spend enough time in restraints to get used to them, until you aren't afraid of them."
"Oh, shit, Heero!" Duo groaned, and slid forward to bury his head in his hands. "I can't believe you're really suggesting that!"
"It's the only way you're going to get over the fear, Duo," Heero said softly.
"You can't be serious," Duo whispered. "I can't go through with it. I can't. I'll freak
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 04:59 am (UTC)"It won't be so bad, Duo." Heero inched forward until he could place his hand on Duo's back. He felt the knotted tension of his shoulders and rubbed gently. "We're in a secure place. The apartment is comfortably furnished. And I'll be here. Just think of it as therapy."
"Therapy. God." After a moment, Duo lifted his head to regard Heero. He looked shaken, but trying to hold himself together. He gave Heero a weak smile. "You know, I wouldn't have thought you were the type to get off on bondage..." he joked.
Heero blinked in confusion. "What do you mean?"
"Nothing. Forget it." Duo took a deep breath, and sat up, clenching his hands in his lap. "All right. When... when do we..."
"Not right now," Heero assured him. "We are both tired and dirty from the last mission. Right now a shower and a meal is in order."
"And not necessarily in that order," Duo said determinedly.
"But we should start as soon as possible," Heero warned him gently. "We might only have a few days before the next mission, and I don't know what could happen then. If this... therapy gets interrupted, we could make things even worse."
"Worse?" Duo muttered. "Christ. That's the *last* thing I need..."
Duo let his head fall back, eyes closed, and concentrated on regulating his breathing. A part of his mind couldn't help but feel the ridiculousness of his position; flat on his back on a bed with his arms and legs spreadeagled. Half his hair was trapped under him, and the rest fanned out in disarray over the pillow. Heero had insisted on leaving his hair loose, for the same reason, Duo suspected, that he was adamant that all four of Duo's limbs be pinned. He knew, without having to be told, that Heero had done it deliberately to maximize Duo's feeling of vulnerability. When Heero decided to do something, he didn't pull any punches. At least he had a blanket pulled up to the bottom of his ribcage, and the blankets and pillows were soft. Just his luck, the bed was the only decent piece of furniture in the entire shabby apartment, its wooden frame sturdy and strong.
He heard Heero's quiet footsteps enter the room, and opened his eyes as Heero seated himself at the edge of the bed. Duo gave him a shaky smile, which Heero briefly returned. "Status?" he asked quietly.
"I'm doin' all right," Duo assured him, and wished he could convince himself of
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Heero glanced up to where a set of handcuffs joined Duo's wrist to the bedpost. He could see the tendons standing out on Duo's arm, and his hand was tightly clenched around the chain. Duo followed his glance, as though realizing his own tension for the first time, and made a conscious effort to relax. "A little... maybe a little nervous, but..."
"That's to be expected," Heero assured him quietly, letting his hands rest on the blanket. "It's all right; I'm here."
Duo shut his eyes and swallowed hard. There was no reason to be nervous around Heero, for God's sake; the man had seen him naked before. Maybe it was the tremors that he couldn't stop from running up and down his arms that he was afraid Heero would see, afraid to show him weakness, afraid to be unworthy of the one man whose respect he craved, afraid that Heero would scorn him, *afraid...*
"Just relax," he heard Heero say. So, he'd noticed the shivering. What else could he expect from the ever-observant soldier? But the shaking wouldn't stop; in fact, it was getting worse. He swallowed again, tasting a bright coppery trace on the back of his tongue, and forced his eyes open to see Heero leaning over him, looking distinctly worried this time. "I'm here. You're safe. Nothing here will hurt you."
Damn it, he shouldn't need Heero hovering over him like a nursemaid. He opened his mouth to tell Heero that he was fine, that Heero should concentrate on keeping watch, but he couldn't quite form the words. If someone were to discover their bolt-hole, if Oz soldiers were to burst in suddenly, they could catch Heero totally by surprise. They could overwhelm even Heero's soldier reflexes, and Duo would be helpless --
At that thought, he automatically brought one hand down to touch Heero, just to reassure himself that the other boy was still alive and safe, but his arm jerked up against the short chain and no matter how frantically he tugged, he couldn't get loose. And suddenly he was back in that tiny room and his arms were trapped and surrounded and pinned down and someone was ripping at his shirt to expose new unburnt skin and --
Heero bit back a curse word as Duo started thrashing wildly in his bindings. He didn't have the leverage to hit Heero, but the cold metal of the cuffs bit into his naked skin and it was obvious he was lost in a flashback. Heero lunged over the bed,
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Heero glanced up to where a set of handcuffs joined Duo's wrist to the bedpost. He could see the tendons standing out on Duo's arm, and his hand was tightly clenched around the chain. Duo followed his glance, as though realizing his own tension for the first time, and made a conscious effort to relax. "A little... maybe a little nervous, but..."
"That's to be expected," Heero assured him quietly, letting his hands rest on the blanket. "It's all right; I'm here."
Duo shut his eyes and swallowed hard. There was no reason to be nervous around Heero, for God's sake; the man had seen him naked before. Maybe it was the tremors that he couldn't stop from running up and down his arms that he was afraid Heero would see, afraid to show him weakness, afraid to be unworthy of the one man whose respect he craved, afraid that Heero would scorn him, *afraid...*
"Just relax," he heard Heero say. So, he'd noticed the shivering. What else could he expect from the ever-observant soldier? But the shaking wouldn't stop; in fact, it was getting worse. He swallowed again, tasting a bright coppery trace on the back of his tongue, and forced his eyes open to see Heero leaning over him, looking distinctly worried this time. "I'm here. You're safe. Nothing here will hurt you."
Damn it, he shouldn't need Heero hovering over him like a nursemaid. He opened his mouth to tell Heero that he was fine, that Heero should concentrate on keeping watch, but he couldn't quite form the words. If someone were to discover their bolt-hole, if Oz soldiers were to burst in suddenly, they could catch Heero totally by surprise. They could overwhelm even Heero's soldier reflexes, and Duo would be helpless --
At that thought, he automatically brought one hand down to touch Heero, just to reassure himself that the other boy was still alive and safe, but his arm jerked up against the short chain and no matter how frantically he tugged, he couldn't get loose. And suddenly he was back in that tiny room and his arms were trapped and surrounded and pinned down and someone was ripping at his shirt to expose new unburnt skin and --
Heero bit back a curse word as Duo started thrashing wildly in his bindings. He didn't have the leverage to hit Heero, but the cold metal of the cuffs bit into his naked skin and it was obvious he was lost in a flashback. Heero lunged over the bed,
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Duo let out a shuddering gasp, eyes squeezed closed, and froze suddenly still. For a moment Heero thought he might have gotten through to the other boy, but his limbs were taut as wire and he was trembling from crown to foot. "Let me out oh please let me go Heero help me it hurts let me out let me out let me out let me *out...*"
The words spilled from his lips in a terrifyingly small, pleading voice, and, helplessly, Heero moved to obey. He quickly reached up to unlatch one of Duo's wrists and then the other, then scooted down to free his ankles. As soon as he was free, Duo curled up into a little ball on the mattress, clutching at the blanket as though for protection. Heero moved in to comfort him, and, frighteningly, Duo flinched away from his touch for a moment before relaxing into the comfort of his embrace.
Heero bit his lip, eyes dark as he considered what had just happened. He had been banking on their friendship to make this idea work, assuming that the trust they shared would be enough to overwhelm the bad memories. But what if it worked the other way around, if the bad memories were starting to infect their relationship instead? He wanted a lot of things from Duo, but he didn't want Duo to be *afraid* of him.
::Chalk up another big fat 'mission failed...'::
Heero gritted his teeth as he locked the manacle around Duo's left wrist again. He had the bad feeling that he was falling back into the old "ninmu" mindset, of hitting the brick wall with his head until it fell down. But he'd been unable to think of anything better, and neither had Duo, and so there was no other recourse but to try again.
Distraction, Heero thought determinedly, was the key. He knew his partner very well, and knew that Duo tended to be a creature of the moment. If he could keep Duo's mind on other things, away from the flashbacks long enough for Duo to grow more comfortable with the restraints, then that would be a good start. He only wished that this shabby apartment had a television, the ultimate in distraction devices; as it was, he'd have to do all the distracting himself.
"Remember," he murmured to Duo, who was biting his lip and holding his eyes tightly closed, "ask me to do anything, save letting you go, and I'll do it."
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Duo let out a shuddering gasp, eyes squeezed closed, and froze suddenly still. For a moment Heero thought he might have gotten through to the other boy, but his limbs were taut as wire and he was trembling from crown to foot. "Let me out oh please let me go Heero help me it hurts let me out let me out let me out let me *out...*"
The words spilled from his lips in a terrifyingly small, pleading voice, and, helplessly, Heero moved to obey. He quickly reached up to unlatch one of Duo's wrists and then the other, then scooted down to free his ankles. As soon as he was free, Duo curled up into a little ball on the mattress, clutching at the blanket as though for protection. Heero moved in to comfort him, and, frighteningly, Duo flinched away from his touch for a moment before relaxing into the comfort of his embrace.
Heero bit his lip, eyes dark as he considered what had just happened. He had been banking on their friendship to make this idea work, assuming that the trust they shared would be enough to overwhelm the bad memories. But what if it worked the other way around, if the bad memories were starting to infect their relationship instead? He wanted a lot of things from Duo, but he didn't want Duo to be *afraid* of him.
::Chalk up another big fat 'mission failed...'::
Heero gritted his teeth as he locked the manacle around Duo's left wrist again. He had the bad feeling that he was falling back into the old "ninmu" mindset, of hitting the brick wall with his head until it fell down. But he'd been unable to think of anything better, and neither had Duo, and so there was no other recourse but to try again.
Distraction, Heero thought determinedly, was the key. He knew his partner very well, and knew that Duo tended to be a creature of the moment. If he could keep Duo's mind on other things, away from the flashbacks long enough for Duo to grow more comfortable with the restraints, then that would be a good start. He only wished that this shabby apartment had a television, the ultimate in distraction devices; as it was, he'd have to do all the distracting himself.
"Remember," he murmured to Duo, who was biting his lip and holding his eyes tightly closed, "ask me to do anything, save letting you go, and I'll do it."
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Heero opened his mouth to agree, then a sudden suspicion took him. "Yes," he said, rather uneasily.
Duo's smile widened. "So... if I asked you to, strip, get up on the desk, and sing Right Said Fred's "I'm Too Sexy," you'd do it?"
"Duo!" Heero growled, but inwardly he was pleased. ::Distraction.::
"You said anything," his partner protested innocently. "Well...? I'm waiting..."
With a muttered imprecation under his breath, Heero straightened up and stalked towards the desk. Duo craned his neck, shifting as far as he could to watch as Heero peeled off his tanktop, then went to the buttons on the front of his jeans. His eyes widened, and he couldn't suppress a delighted laugh. "Heero! You really would?"
Heero stopped, looking back towards the bed. "I did agree to do anything," he said reluctantly. Duo laughed again.
"It was a joke, Heero! Get me a drink of water, will you?" he asked.
Heero nodded, and turned back to the doorway, padding out of the bedroom down the short hallway into the kitchen. He left the doorway open; Duo could see a slice of his back between the doorframe and the wall, and clearly hear the chinkings and water sounds that floated back into the bedrooms. Despite that, though, the room seemed suddenly, horribly empty, and despite himself he felt his breathing speeding up. ::Not again, dammit...::
Heero returned with a plastic cup of water in his hand, and a sharp glance at Duo had him cursing silently once more. Duo was gray and sweating again; he shouldn't have left the room. Quickly, he placed the cup on the bedside table and seated himself on the edge of the bed, clearly in Duo's field of vision. Damn, damn, damn. Distract him. Racking his brain for a topic of conversation, one sprang immediately to mind. "We still need to return to the complex, in order to complete the mission," he told his partner. "What do you think would be the best avenue of approach?"
"Huh?" Duo's eyes opened slightly, focusing on Heero with difficulty. "Oh... the mission..."
Heero nodded and continued, trying to bring Duo's attention back to him. "There is no doubt that their security will be increased over the next few days," he told
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Heero opened his mouth to agree, then a sudden suspicion took him. "Yes," he said, rather uneasily.
Duo's smile widened. "So... if I asked you to, strip, get up on the desk, and sing Right Said Fred's "I'm Too Sexy," you'd do it?"
"Duo!" Heero growled, but inwardly he was pleased. ::Distraction.::
"You said anything," his partner protested innocently. "Well...? I'm waiting..."
With a muttered imprecation under his breath, Heero straightened up and stalked towards the desk. Duo craned his neck, shifting as far as he could to watch as Heero peeled off his tanktop, then went to the buttons on the front of his jeans. His eyes widened, and he couldn't suppress a delighted laugh. "Heero! You really would?"
Heero stopped, looking back towards the bed. "I did agree to do anything," he said reluctantly. Duo laughed again.
"It was a joke, Heero! Get me a drink of water, will you?" he asked.
Heero nodded, and turned back to the doorway, padding out of the bedroom down the short hallway into the kitchen. He left the doorway open; Duo could see a slice of his back between the doorframe and the wall, and clearly hear the chinkings and water sounds that floated back into the bedrooms. Despite that, though, the room seemed suddenly, horribly empty, and despite himself he felt his breathing speeding up. ::Not again, dammit...::
Heero returned with a plastic cup of water in his hand, and a sharp glance at Duo had him cursing silently once more. Duo was gray and sweating again; he shouldn't have left the room. Quickly, he placed the cup on the bedside table and seated himself on the edge of the bed, clearly in Duo's field of vision. Damn, damn, damn. Distract him. Racking his brain for a topic of conversation, one sprang immediately to mind. "We still need to return to the complex, in order to complete the mission," he told his partner. "What do you think would be the best avenue of approach?"
"Huh?" Duo's eyes opened slightly, focusing on Heero with difficulty. "Oh... the mission..."
Heero nodded and continued, trying to bring Duo's attention back to him. "There is no doubt that their security will be increased over the next few days," he told
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Duo roused himself slightly, brow creasing in thought. "How long would it take ya to get to Wing from here?" he muttered. "A distraction... like a Gundam attack on one side of the compound, maybe the other one could sneak in during the confusion..."
Distraction, indeed. Heero resettled himself on the bed. "We were not supposed to use our Gundams for this mission," he reminded Duo. "I'm not sure we should reveal their presence here."
"An explosion, then," Duo muttered, and shifted with nervous tension on the sheets. "Something... Heero... I --"
He was losing his focus again. Heero leaned in quickly, putting one hand on Duo's chest. "Ask me to do anything, and I'll do it," he reminded him softly.
Duo nodded, but it looked like most of his attention was elsewhere. "Heero... could you pull the blanket up? It's cold..."
Biting back a growl of frustration, Heero took hold of the covers and drew them up over Duo's bare torso. ::Losing him. Think of a distraction.:: Like what? To hell with it. At least he knew Duo couldn't punch him for it. Heero leaned forward and kissed Duo quite soundly.
He saw Duo's eyes widen, felt his sudden intake of breath, and smiled against Duo's lips. ::Got your attention now, don't I?:: he thought triumphantly. Pleased with the success of his actions, he brought his hands up to touch and caress Duo's chest and shoulders.
Heero moved his mouth down Duo's neck, pausing to nibble at the hollow above his collarbone before descending further to lave Duo's chest with his tongue. Eyes wide and staring at the ceiling, Duo took his breaths in short sharp gasps as Heero's skillful hands and lips brought a heated flush to his skin. One hand slid under the blanket, dancing along his ribs to brush against his nipples, and Duo finally found his voice. "Heero, what are you doing?" he choked out.
"Mmm... I'm not sure, Duo," Heero whispered playfully, lifting his head off of Duo's chest. "But if I had to guess, maybe it was something like... this?" With that, he dropped his mouth to lay a line of kisses along Duo's jaw, sucking lightly at the spot behind his jaw until Duo shivered.
"Heero!" he choked out. "You shouldn't... I don't think... I want... Heero, cut it ou --"
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Heero broke away from the kiss, and pulled back. He nearly laughed at the slightly glazed look in his friend's eyes; stunned, Duo didn't look much like he could move even if his arms had been free. "Were you going to say something?" he asked in a tone of false innocence.
"Say something?" Duo repeated dazedly. He couldn't think of anything he would have wanted to say. That would have required non-lust-fried brain cells, which were in short supply at the moment.
"I didn't think so." Smirking openly now, Heero levered himself off of Duo and pushed himself further down the bed, pulling away the hindering blanket as he moved. He paused for a long moment, looking down on his new lover, and his breath caught in a mouth gone suddenly dry. When Duo had made his feeble joke the day before, about Heero being the type of person who enjoyed tying a lover up, Heero hadn't understood. He couldn't see anything remotely erotic about handcuffs, too reminiscent of prisons and cells.
But now he thought he understood. Duo looked absolutely incredible like this, gorgeously toned body spread out like an offering. His skin was creamy smooth and flawless across his torso and limbs, turning a dusky rouge around the edges. Fingers, palms, the soles of his feet, lips, groin... delicious, every part of him. His to touch, and taste, until he chose to unlock the cuffs and set Duo free.
It was about trust, too, Heero realized with a sudden jolt. Neither one of them would be here, *could* be here if they did not trust each other with their lives. Duo would never have submitted to this, would never have allowed himself to this if he did not trust Heero implicitly. The thought burned in the front of his mind as he settled himself back down on the bed, straddling one of Duo's legs.
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)Heero broke away from the kiss, and pulled back. He nearly laughed at the slightly glazed look in his friend's eyes; stunned, Duo didn't look much like he could move even if his arms had been free. "Were you going to say something?" he asked in a tone of false innocence.
"Say something?" Duo repeated dazedly. He couldn't think of anything he would have wanted to say. That would have required non-lust-fried brain cells, which were in short supply at the moment.
"I didn't think so." Smirking openly now, Heero levered himself off of Duo and pushed himself further down the bed, pulling away the hindering blanket as he moved. He paused for a long moment, looking down on his new lover, and his breath caught in a mouth gone suddenly dry. When Duo had made his feeble joke the day before, about Heero being the type of person who enjoyed tying a lover up, Heero hadn't understood. He couldn't see anything remotely erotic about handcuffs, too reminiscent of prisons and cells.
But now he thought he understood. Duo looked absolutely incredible like this, gorgeously toned body spread out like an offering. His skin was creamy smooth and flawless across his torso and limbs, turning a dusky rouge around the edges. Fingers, palms, the soles of his feet, lips, groin... delicious, every part of him. His to touch, and taste, until he chose to unlock the cuffs and set Duo free.
It was about trust, too, Heero realized with a sudden jolt. Neither one of them would be here, *could* be here if they did not trust each other with their lives. Duo would never have submitted to this, would never have allowed himself to this if he did not trust Heero implicitly. The thought burned in the front of his mind as he settled himself back down on the bed, straddling one of Duo's legs.
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:01 am (UTC)All thoughts of coherent language were driven out of Duo's head at that maddening touch, and he settled for a wordless moan that set Heero's blood on fire. His long jeans suddenly trapped far too much heat against his skin, as well as confining his own erection, as he took Duo's cock into his mouth. If Duo couldn't speak, then he couldn't tell Heero to stop, and so he concentrated on driving all but breathless noises out of Duo's mouth.
"Heero..." Duo moaned, and Heero shuddered at the sexy sound of his name falling from Duo's lips in that tone of voice. "Oh, shit, Heero, you're so good... suck me, just like that... more, please..."
All right, so he had underestimated his partner's ability to speak under the most extreme of conditions. Still, a promise was a promise, and Heero happily obliged, opening his mouth a little wider to take as much of Duo as possible down his throat. Slowly, he drew out again, letting Duo nearly fall from his lips before sucking the tip of the cock back into his mouth and going down again. Duo gasped and squirmed, the chains on the handcuffs rattling as his arms strained against the bindings, using the leverage of the chains to thrust upwards into Heero's waiting mouth. Muscles pulled taut and flexed as he strove against the handcuffs, and Heero took a moment to appreciate the view as he awarded his lover another furious suck. "Heero!" he cried, screamed almost, hands yanking at his bonds. "Let me touch you, please! Let me taste you, Heero..."
That put Heero in something of a quandary. He had promised, after all, to do everything, short of letting Duo go. He pulled his mouth off of Duo's length, to a groan of disappointment from Duo, and gave it one last lick before deciding on a solution. Stretching upwards on the bed to cover Duo, he reached his arms outwards until his hands twined with Duo's by the bedposts. It gave him a feeling of excitement, almost fear, as though he were the one bound, and he leaned down to share another kiss with Duo, letting Duo taste of himself and Heero at the same time.
The position lined his body up perfectly with Duo's, leaving Heero breathless as his hard and heated cock rubbed against Duo's. His mind deserting him momentarily, he ground his denim-covered erection against Duo's groin, making the
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:01 am (UTC)A brief wince flashed over Duo's face, and Heero realized that somewhere in Duo's thrashing, his long hair had gotten trapped underneath him and was pulling at his scalp with every move he made. Relucantly extracting his hand from Duo's, he pulled his knees up underneath him to support his weight while leaving his hands free. Duo shivered and moaned as Heero slipped a hand underneath him and pulled up, freeing a little space between his back and the mattress and pulling taut the last of the slack in the handcuffs. With one hand, Heero gathered up Duo's loose, sweat-dampened hair and pulled it out from underneath him, pouring it in a silken waterfall over Duo's chest and stomach.
Heero stopped for a moment, tearing himself away from Duo long enough to shed his jeans and briefs in record time, staring all the while by the beauty of the vision in front of him. With the last obstacle gone, his hunger overpowered him and he scrambled across Duo's body to kneel between his legs. To Duo's moan of disappointment, he ignored Duo's swollen cock this time, bypassing it in favor of a lower target. He paused briefly to fondle Duo's balls, bestowing on them a quick nuzzle and swipe of his tongue, before circling one fingertip around Duo's puckered entrance.
The chains rattled as Duo thrashed, half-shouting as he tried to press against Heero's fingers. "Heero! Please! Oh, fuck..."
Heero growled faintly in irritation. Duo was still talking, this far into the game? Well, he could kill two birds with one stone, then, as he reached up over Duo's splayed body to press his fingers against Duo's kiss-swollen lips. Greedily, Duo swallowed Heero's fingers, nipping gently as he sucked in a way that sent shocks down Heero's arm straight to his groin. When he couldn't stand it any more, he pulled his arm back, and finished the job of thoroughly wetting his fingers with his own saliva. Finally satisfied, he slid one finger into Duo's entrance and began to carefully stretch him. He didn't know if Duo was a virgin or not, and there was no way he was going to take unnecessary chances with his partner's body, no matter how urgently the blood pulsed through his veins.
Duo must have been feeling it too, for he seemed to stretch more easily and
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:01 am (UTC)A brief wince flashed over Duo's face, and Heero realized that somewhere in Duo's thrashing, his long hair had gotten trapped underneath him and was pulling at his scalp with every move he made. Relucantly extracting his hand from Duo's, he pulled his knees up underneath him to support his weight while leaving his hands free. Duo shivered and moaned as Heero slipped a hand underneath him and pulled up, freeing a little space between his back and the mattress and pulling taut the last of the slack in the handcuffs. With one hand, Heero gathered up Duo's loose, sweat-dampened hair and pulled it out from underneath him, pouring it in a silken waterfall over Duo's chest and stomach.
Heero stopped for a moment, tearing himself away from Duo long enough to shed his jeans and briefs in record time, staring all the while by the beauty of the vision in front of him. With the last obstacle gone, his hunger overpowered him and he scrambled across Duo's body to kneel between his legs. To Duo's moan of disappointment, he ignored Duo's swollen cock this time, bypassing it in favor of a lower target. He paused briefly to fondle Duo's balls, bestowing on them a quick nuzzle and swipe of his tongue, before circling one fingertip around Duo's puckered entrance.
The chains rattled as Duo thrashed, half-shouting as he tried to press against Heero's fingers. "Heero! Please! Oh, fuck..."
Heero growled faintly in irritation. Duo was still talking, this far into the game? Well, he could kill two birds with one stone, then, as he reached up over Duo's splayed body to press his fingers against Duo's kiss-swollen lips. Greedily, Duo swallowed Heero's fingers, nipping gently as he sucked in a way that sent shocks down Heero's arm straight to his groin. When he couldn't stand it any more, he pulled his arm back, and finished the job of thoroughly wetting his fingers with his own saliva. Finally satisfied, he slid one finger into Duo's entrance and began to carefully stretch him. He didn't know if Duo was a virgin or not, and there was no way he was going to take unnecessary chances with his partner's body, no matter how urgently the blood pulsed through his veins.
Duo must have been feeling it too, for he seemed to stretch more easily and
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:01 am (UTC)"Ahh... HEERO!" Duo screamed, restraint lost in his all-consuming need. "What are you waiting for, orders from J? FUCK ME ALREADY!"
A direct request. Damn. Not that he really minded. But what to use for lubrication? Spit wouldn't do it, not completely enough. Semen would work, but he wanted to come inside Duo and didn't want to wait for Duo to be ready again. Inspiration struck through, or perhaps thanks to, the lust-filled haze, and he fumbled on the nightstand for the bottle of cheap hand lotion that the apartment's last occupant had left behind. Hand closing on the plastic casing, he squeezed hard and was rewarded with a handful of slippery lotion. It smelled like harsh soap and salt, and Heero knew in a flash of clarity that he'd never again be able to use restroom soap without getting hard. Biting his lip to stave off a climax which hovered dangerously near, he slathered his handful of lube over his aching erection. The extra stimulation was more than he could handle, and primal reflexes took over as he rose up and drove into Duo's open, waiting body.
Duo didn't bother waiting to adjust, gripping the bedposts for leverage as he slammed upwards against Heero's invading cock. That one motion nearly brought Heero to completion, and he grabbed hold of Duo's hips to hold him still while he fought for control over himself. When he thought he could move again, he pulled out slightly and thrust in again, still holding Duo's hips in place, slippery fingers digging into his lover's buttocks.
He quickly found a rhythm, deep and urgent, tilting Duo's hips in his hand until he found that place that would make Duo see stars. When Duo's explosive gasp told him he'd found it, he aimed for that spot with every thrust. It thrilled him, to direct both their pleasure, knowing that Duo had surrendered total control to him. His breath came in harsh pants, sweat glowing off his skin and trickling down with the heat and
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:01 am (UTC)Heero felt Duo's come drench over his belly and chest, and saw his own vision start to go white as Duo's satiny muscles clenched around him. He thrust twice more into that soft, unbelievably welcoming heat before his own control snapped and he filled Duo's passageway with his seed.
At last, drained in more ways than one, he slumped down on top of Duo, still buried deep inside him. His skin pressed against Duo's, with the curtain of his silken hair the only thing separating them. Duo was lying with his eyes closed, breathing deeply in total post-coital bliss, every muscle loose and relaxed. Heero lay contentedly inside him, his body still humming with sex and wonder.
Duo stirred first, blowing irritably at a strand of sweat-soaked hair that was stuck irritatingly to his face. Opening his eyes, he smiled muzzily at Heero, and then his expression slid towards annoyance. "Oh, no," he groaned, tilting his head far enough enough to glance down his body to the mess of hair that was stuck between them. "Please don't tell me I got it on my hair, too," he grumbled.
Heero kissed the side of his jaw that was nearest. "Then I won't tell you," he said dryly.
"Aw, shit!" Duo groused, letting his eyes fall shut again. "That's going to take forever to brush out, and in this apartment's crappy little shower stall? I can't even get a decent shower! My hair's not going to be clean for days..."
Heero just stared at him, until Duo felt the weight of his stare and opened his eyes again. "What?" he demanded.
"Your hair?" Heero repeated. "Is that all you can talk about?"
Duo blushed sunburn red. "Um. What else would I talk about?" he stalled.
A knowing smirk began to spread across Heero's face. "Well, for one thing," he said, reaching up to tug lightly at Duo's still-bound wrist, "the fact that you're not having a panic attack right now?"
Duo's eyes widened comically, and his mouth opened and closed several times. He looked like a carp, and Heero had to stifle a bite of hysterical laughter. My foolish koi, he thought, as he braced his hands on either side of Duo's chest and began to ease out of his partner -- lover. Duo winced slightly, but quickly relaxed again. "I... I completely forgot about it," he stammered.
"Forgot?" Heero asked. "Then I would call this a unquestionably successful
Re: Ties that Bind
Date: 2006-02-21 05:02 am (UTC)Duo leered wickedly. "I'd call it something a lot shorter. Like a damn good fuck, for starters."
"That too." Heero turned on the bed, breathing in the smell of sex and Duo as he undid the latches and freed Duo's ankles. As Duo scooted upwards on the bed, moving into a sitting position, Heero moved up and released his wrists, as well. It could have been his imagination, but he thought he detected a faint look of disappointment on Duo's face as he sat up and rubbed at his chafed wrists. "We will try again later, but with any luck, on the next mission, handcuffs will not inspire such fear in you."
"With any luck?" Duo blushed. "Great, so now I just have to explain to the Oz guards why clapping me in irons is giving me a hard-on. The poor goons will need therapy." He shook his head, chuckling ruefully. "Therapy. God..."
"You seemed to enjoy this 'therapy' well enough," Heero remarked dryly, collecting the handcuffs and setting them back in their cases. He noted the mess on the sheets, a mixture of sweat and semen and the hand lotion that had burst from the broken bottle, and decided that laundry was the second priority. Showers were first.
"Fuck yeah!" Duo bounced up from the bed, wincing only slightly at the soreness radiating from his rear. "Tell you what, Heero -- next safehouse we get, it can be your turn for therapy." At Heero's withering glance, he added persuasively, "After all, Heero, you go on the same missions as me. There's the same dangers involved. Think of it as training!"
"Hm." Heero could have flatly disproved such specious arguments. He could have pointed out that Duo, not he, was the one with the phobia. He could have reminded Duo of his own training, which was extensive enough to remove all possibilities of such phobias. He could have pointed out that his self-discipline was much better than Duo's. He could have mentioned the little fact that steel cuffs had no chance of holding him, anyway.
He could have... but for some reason, he didn't.
~owari~