... where did everyone go?

[windandwater]

Went to Circuit City and came back, as my ovaries are saying "RAAAAAAAAAAWR" very loudly and it's rather painful and sitracting. Currently munching on french bread pizza. I passed my parents on JFK, and later called them when I got to Circuit City, since someone called my cell but I didn't recognize the number.

Anyway, Circuit City FINALLY had the ink/paper cartridge thingies we need for the photo printer we have (got it with mom's digital camera), so I called to get the printer model number from her. Luckily, I managed to talk to a sales person since the rack was empty but the price label was still there. There were more of the ink/paper sets in another aisle and I snatched up the next to last one. Whoo! \o/ Also got 300 and the special postcards. Hahaha.

But once I got home, my parents were gone again. >_>;; Hmph.

Now I'm going to eat, digest, hope it doesn't all come back up, and then see if I can get on Trickster, since the wireless is working right now. Wish me luck.

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[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

I'll find it once I'm Real. Once I'm Real, I'll understand everything.

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

I wonder, if you truly need to be more Real than you already are. If you remembered the emotion, knew what it was, what's to say you can't reach it again?

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

I've tried already. *hangs his head* I want to be able to lo-- do that. But I can't even say the word most of the time! Once I'm Real, I'll be able to do it.

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

...what do you need, to become Real?

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

I... I dunno. *tries to bury himself against your chest again, his hands clenching your shirt* I'll figure it out, and then I'll be Real. And I won't try and kill Riku this time to do it.

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*is quiet for a long moment, then murmurs softly in your ear*

If there's anything I can give to help, it's yours. No matter what it is.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*he squeezes you tighter in response, shivering from the feel of your warm breath on his ear*

... just... hold me a little more.

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*that wasn't what he meant, but he's more than happy to give you that*

Alright. I just want you to know, though... I'd give you so much more. Just say the word and it's yours.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*makes a little disbelieving noise as he snuggles more against you*

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*catches your hand in his and presses it over his Heart, wondering if you can feel it*

I mean it.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*he does feel a steady thump thump and gives you a look*

No, you don't. You shouldn't. You need to get out more. There's better people out there than me.

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*just continues to give you that little smile, because you still don't seem to get it*

But no one else who I would do this for. Perhaps... Perhaps what Riku has that you do not... is a little bit of Light? You are completely Dark, are you not? Perhaps taking some of my Light and making it your own... It could work, couldn't it?

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*his eyes go wide and snatches his hand off your chest and leans back, looking ready to bolt*

DON'T! You can't do that! I won't let you! Riku tried it once and that's enough! The Light will kill me!

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*sighs, because he was really hoping that would work*

Then I suppose trading my Heart with yours won't work either.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*is even more appalled!*

You can't do that either! That's your Heart!

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*looks at you calmly*

I would only do this for you. I do not know why I even have it; I certainly do not deserve it. You, on the other hand, have lived your whole life to make others happy. There is no one I know who deserves it more.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*shakes his head frantically, feeling bile rise up in his throat*

No! NO! I won't let you do that! That's your Heart and not mine! I'll be Real someday, but I won't do it by stealing other people's Hearts away!

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

It wouldn't be stealing, it would be freely given. But I won't mention it again if it's going to upset you like this.

*wraps his arms around you in another hug, trying to calm you down*

I wish there were something I could do, is all.

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*okay the hug is very nice and he'll just shake a little bit in your arms if you don't mind*

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*he'll just hold you until you're ready to let go then, glad he can do at least this for you*

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*and he's very grateful for that, even if he'd never say it*

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*he still means what he said; you've done so much for him when you have every right to kill him*

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*but he won't let you do that... and he's afraid you'll turn into the other Marluxia he knows better, once you lose your Heart*

[rosa-moschata.livejournal.com]

*....the threat of that alone would keep him from doing this. he Does Not Want to go back to his old Organization self*

[windup-boytoy.livejournal.com]

*but that Marluxia at least wasn't a complete virgin ;__;*