death

[windandwater]

i'm sorry for that last post. well, not really sorry, because i mean, i typed it but it was confusing and yeah.

my grandmother just died today.

we got the call just a bit before i posted and it was... it was really quick. just yesterday we got a call about Nanay because she was having some intestinal blockage or something and was going to undergo surgery. she didn't want to, but everyone said she should and it was just. well. and i guess she had a heart attack or something from the stress and then she's gone. it's just. yeah. and it was so quick. she was making jokes about how she just needed to take a good dump and she'd be okay and now she's dead and that was too fast. she was on a respirator for abit, and it was enough for the relatives to call us and so my mom and us could say goodbye, but Nanay had said before this that she didn't want to linger, that if she died today, she wanted to be buried tomorrow. like that. the funeral is on tuesday. mom is a wreck and we can't fly to the philippines for the funeral because mom's swamped at work and her passport expired and she was planning on getting it renewed like, this week. but no it's like... it's too late. it's really hard and she was Nanay. i mean, she isn't even very old, and now i don't have any grandparents anymore. just.

it's my fucking birthday. stuff like this shouldn't happen on your birthday.


so. yeah. uhm. no going out tomorrow. i don't think.

Comments

[merith.livejournal.com]

*holds you close*

i'm so sorry sera. i'm so sorry.

[nanthimus.livejournal.com]

*big hug*

[askerian]

oh fuck. ;_; that's horrible. *loveloveloves you* i'm so sorry, love.

[sukino.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight* I'm sorry, Mistress.

[sunhawk16.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, sweetie. *hugs you tight*

[kitedreams.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[samikitty.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry, sera~ *hugs*

[chibi-faolan.livejournal.com]

*hugs you lots*

[vortex-of-chaos.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight* So sorry, dear.

[cerusee.livejournal.com]

Oh Sera, I'm so sorry.

[d-copper.livejournal.com]

*hugs hard* I am really really sorry to hear about your grandmother. Take care of yourself.

[questofdreams.livejournal.com]

...no words to say that would bring any comfort, hun. I'm so sorry *hug*

[sharona1x2.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry, Sera. *hugs super tightly*

[mikkeneko.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. *hugs* I'll *hugs* you for real tomorrow.

[aikonamika.livejournal.com]

Oh gods...*hugs you* I'm so sorry. I know those are pretty pointless words, but...they're all I have to offer you. I'm sorry. *hugs again*

[kwycksylver.livejournal.com]

*gives you a hug*

[windsorblue.livejournal.com]

*hugs tightly* I'm so sorry.

[mmariep2.livejournal.com]

*hugs* loosing a grandparent near or even on a special day is extrememly hard (I know) i'm sorry. *hugs*

[zalia.livejournal.com]

*hugs tightly*

I'm so sorry.

[aurorn.livejournal.com]

*hugs*