I stopped my pacing and looked back at Heero. No change; he was staring at the screen, but his hands were motionless on the keyboard. After a moment more, I ventured, "Heero?"
"You said you would listen," he whispered. "You said I could trust you."
"What?" I blinked, as his meaning filtered through. Back after the execution of the traitor, back when the secrets were still secret. "...Yes. I did," I admitted slowly.
"Will you still?" he breathed, never taking his eyes off the screen.
"All right," I allowed, and then paused. "But things have changed. Now there's a condition attached."
His eyes slid closed. "Name it."
"Now, I ask questions, and you answer them," I dared, nearly holding my breath. I had to count on his seeming desire to talk, in order to get what I needed to get before it was too late. It was the same sinking feeling of anticipation I'd felt when I'd convinced Duo to talk to me; the nagging urgency that time was running out.
A long moment of silence, so long I thought I'd pushed too far, before he finally spoke. "...All right."
I pulled up a chair next to him and settled into it, a strange calmness overtaking me. First Wufei, then Duo, then Trowa, and finally Heero had given me their confessions. That would be the end of it, then; I would have the final piece in my hands. And after that... well, Allah would provide new questions then, I had no doubt.
There was only one real question to ask, the one I had been simmering over ever since Duo had turned Trowa's gun against him. I could hypothesize for the rest of the century about the answer, but as with all of this kind of questions, only one person could know for sure. "Why didn't you order the raid on Dixon base when you first received the report that confirmed Duo was there?"
He answered immediately. "Dixon base was too heavily staffed and guarded. The losses suffered from an operation would be unacceptable for the retrieval of a single person."
I wanted to swear at him, I really did. But I had absolutely no doubts that Trowa, Wufei, and Duo had already used enough epithets to fill a small dictionary, and they hadn't worked yet. So I kept my voice level and my posture still. "No, Heero," I told him in a tone that brooked no argument. "The soldier is not big enough for you to hide this behind. I know that you have a mind; what's more, I know that you have a heart and a soul. I have seen them. So. Why didn't you order the raid on Dixon when you knew that Duo was there?"
Re: Torn 6
Date: 2006-02-21 11:31 am (UTC)I stopped my pacing and looked back at Heero. No change; he was staring at the screen, but his hands were motionless on the keyboard. After a moment more, I ventured, "Heero?"
"You said you would listen," he whispered. "You said I could trust you."
"What?" I blinked, as his meaning filtered through. Back after the execution of the traitor, back when the secrets were still secret. "...Yes. I did," I admitted slowly.
"Will you still?" he breathed, never taking his eyes off the screen.
"All right," I allowed, and then paused. "But things have changed. Now there's a condition attached."
His eyes slid closed. "Name it."
"Now, I ask questions, and you answer them," I dared, nearly holding my breath. I had to count on his seeming desire to talk, in order to get what I needed to get before it was too late. It was the same sinking feeling of anticipation I'd felt when I'd convinced Duo to talk to me; the nagging urgency that time was running out.
A long moment of silence, so long I thought I'd pushed too far, before he finally spoke. "...All right."
I pulled up a chair next to him and settled into it, a strange calmness overtaking me. First Wufei, then Duo, then Trowa, and finally Heero had given me their confessions. That would be the end of it, then; I would have the final piece in my hands. And after that... well, Allah would provide new questions then, I had no doubt.
There was only one real question to ask, the one I had been simmering over ever since Duo had turned Trowa's gun against him. I could hypothesize for the rest of the century about the answer, but as with all of this kind of questions, only one person could know for sure. "Why didn't you order the raid on Dixon base when you first received the report that confirmed Duo was there?"
He answered immediately. "Dixon base was too heavily staffed and guarded. The losses suffered from an operation would be unacceptable for the retrieval of a single person."
I wanted to swear at him, I really did. But I had absolutely no doubts that Trowa, Wufei, and Duo had already used enough epithets to fill a small dictionary, and they hadn't worked yet. So I kept my voice level and my posture still. "No, Heero," I told him in a tone that brooked no argument. "The soldier is not big enough for you to hide this behind. I know that you have a mind; what's more, I know that you have a heart and a soul. I have seen them. So. Why didn't you order the raid on Dixon when you knew that Duo was there?"