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[windandwater]

In a fit of jubilation and high spirits, Duo had managed to break away from the safehouse (and his ever-frowning partner) and wandered into a club in a nearby town. The lighting had been dark, the club had been crowded, the music had been loud, and the alcohol had flowed freely. Duo was in his element, dancing and drinking the night away. He could still remember the feel of hands across his body and the different tastes of the people he had kissed.

Duo had been drowning in sensation. Sometimes, it was the only thing that kept him from screaming.



In fact, Duo clearly remembered being pressed up against a wall, savoring the feel of a random body against him, allowing rough hands to pull and tug at his black clothing. Duo had been willing and ready for that one night stand. Anything to get away from it all. Then a rough hand had landed on his shoulder and Duo had come face to face with the angry eyes of Heero Yuy. The Japanese pilot had shoved the intoxicated man away from Duo, ignoring all the words of protest and anger that spit like fire from the braided boy. The only thing that Duo had remembered clearly after that was Heero practically throwing him into the motel room, upbraiding him for being too noticable. For being too careless.

Duo had gone off like a string of firecrackers. Loud, deadly, blow-your-hand-off-if-you-touch-them-wrong fireworks.

"Fuck you, Yuy!" Duo had spat out, holding one hand against the wall to keep himself upright while he yelled. Maybe he had too much to drink. "I'm too 'noticable'?! I'm too 'careless'?! I'm not the bastard who dragged a guy out of a club under the eyes of the whole place!"

"Shut up!" Heero hissed. "Do you want everyone around to hear you?"

"Maybe I do!" Duo said, raising his voice. "Maybe I think everyone should know what a bastard you are! D'ya ever think that I *wanted* to be noticed? That I *wanted* that guy to take me to his place for the night so that he could fuck me stupid?"

"That's irresponsible behavior," Heero replied. "You're so wasted that you can't even stand up straight. Who knows what you could have said? What if he had been an OZ soldier? You know that making any sort of relationship with an outsider could have drastic consequences."

Duo had started to laugh then, almost hysterical. It would have been funny that Heero's expression had gone from righteous to worried in the space of a heartbeat. But Duo continued to laugh, doubling up and tears coming to his eyes.

"I never said nothing about a 'relationship', Heero. I just wanted a good fuck." Duo's laughter abruptly stopped, and he looked down at his hands, which seemed to be grimy in the dull light coming from the lamp. "I wanted to not feel anything. I wanted to feel something. I wanted to know that my hands were worth something besides killing."

Duo looked up then, finally catching Heero's deep blue gaze. He gave a finaly bitter chuckle. "Sometimes, I just want someone to hold me. So that I can pretend that my life is normal. So that I don't have to worry about dying tomorrow."

Heero's expression changed just then and it seemed like he was about to say something. But Duo wasn't quite sure, because at that moment, his eyes rolled up and he passed out.

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[skyblueandblack.livejournal.com]

I think that sloshed!Duo sounds like fun. He also sounds like he needs therapy. And it looks like Heero's got a virgin alarm, too. ^_^